A lot of people walk around portraying so much confidence and displaying some level of self-esteem and arrogance, but deep within, are totally insecure fellows gallivanting with shoulders high up above the clouds. People with insecurities tend to be jealous, envious, sad, arrogant, depressed people who put up a charade of confidence and a shield of pride, but end up feeling alone, abandoned, worthless, insecure, suffer from self doubt and low self-esteem, etc. I used to be an insecure person and my insecurities got the best of me at the time. I thought and felt everyone around me had their lives in order, this person was better than me, the other had it all together, people liked this one more, but not me, and just a lot, but it was really suffocating to feel sad, worthless, insecure, depressed, abandoned, rejected, isolated and I created yet another box in the box I was and pushed myself to the extreme. I became this sad, saucy, angry, mute, depressed and suicidal young girl who just kept walking, searching for a solution and light at the end of the tunnel.
Eventually, I had to loosen up, be happy for everyone around me for their successes and breakthroughs, genuinely feel sorry for those whose worlds came crashing down and I decided to step out, stand and speak up- even if I was shut out, criticized and ridiculed in my trial days. I didn’t give up. With time, my sincerity and originality created a personality full of life, happiness, joviality, peace, calm, open mindedness, acceptance, honesty, love and people began embracing me, showing me stuff, telling me things, and a lot of doors sprung open for me. It was totally incredibly awesome. Yea, it took a while, my insecurities still showed up once in a while- even until last year, even until yesterday, but over time, I’ve learned how to be emotionally intelligent to not let it get the best of me or tamper with my relationships and friendships- which took a whole long time to build.
Insecurities will not let you grow, live and be happy. Insecurities will always be accompanied with envy, jealousy, hatred towards yourself or the next person, anger, resentment, self doubt, low self esteem, feeling of abandonment, stagnation, frustration and rejection. My dear, you have just one shot in life. Don’t let nobody nor anything weigh you down. Someone walked away or ditched you for someone else; be happy for them, smile about it and move on. Your plans didn’t come through as proposed and projected; move on to something else cause there are better days and opportunities ahead. Don’t let arrogance or pride or envy, resentment, bitterness, doubt and trust issues hinder you from connecting with people, making the most of that network, learning and growing. Don’t let your insecurities get the best of you. Pride comes before a fall….remember!